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I’ve been in a funk.  Ever since I hurt my leg I’ve been bummed.  The 10K is in less than a week and I can’t run it.  I will walk it but I don’t want to do any further damage so I’m not going to attempt even a jog.
So all I’ve been thinking about lately is how far I had come only to be stopped.  I was really looking forward to seeing how far I could run in the 10K and have been really down on myself because I can’t do it now.
Last night my husband sat me down and we had a talk.  Basically he is sick of the pity party and he had some very valid points.
He brought it to my attention how I have lost focus on why I originally started working out.  It was never about running a half marathon.  It wasn’t about running anything.  It was to help with my weight loss and because it made me feel better.
I’ve gotten so tunnel vision about numbers and distances and run times that I have lost sight of why I started in the first place.
I’m crying over the fact that I can’t run a 10K when 3 months ago I couldn’t run for more than 60 seconds at a time!  I’ve come a long way in a short time and my body is telling me to slow it down.  I may want to do well in races but the act of getting healthy itself is NOT A RACE.  There will always be a 5K or a 10K looming on the horizon that I can sign up for.  And let’s not forget the half marathon in December.  But the benefits of the exercise will last me a lifetime.
It’s so easy to lose sight of the little things that are the most important and that is what I have been doing.
So what if I don’t run any part of the upcoming 10K?  Is the world going to end?  Of course not!  The only thing that is going to happen is that it will just take me a little longer to do it because I’ll be walking.  Not that big of a deal is it?  No! I am doing great and no one can take that away from me, not even myself. 
In other news I headed over to Big 5 this noon and got myself a foam roller.
A while back when I was seeing the chiropractor regularly he recommended one for my back and I blew it off.  Since then Lisa has been singing it’s praises and that has made me pretty curious.  The final straw was when my runner sister in law told me it would really help my IT band.  Okay, I’m sold!  I tried it out really briefly when I got back to work and it really feels pretty good.  I’ll do it more extensively when I get home and update at a later date but I have high hopes for this thing.