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My Story
A little background… I am 35 years old and have struggled with weight my entire life.
When I was around 19 or 20 I finally sat down and counted every single calorie that I put in my mouth. Literally.
I would sit down at least seven times a day with a pen, paper and a calculator making sure I didn’t go above 1200 calories for the day and if I did it was to be deducted from what I ate the next day. It was very much obsessive behavior. I lost though. I lost about sixty pounds and got into a size 12. The diet was helped out along the way by the fact that I had gotten gallstones and anytime I ate fatty or spicy foods I had an attack. I pretty much lived on cereal for about a couple of months until I could have my surgery.
Once that sucker was out I went a little crazy with the fatty foods and gained some weight back. In my early 20s for emotional reasons I never connected at the time I turned to bulimia and lost 30 pounds putting me into a size eight.
Ill spare you the emotional drama but lets just say that two years later I woke up and realized I no longer wanted to kill myself. It wasn’t that easy of course. It took me years to finally quit purging all together and I still get the urge and probably always will when I overeat.
So eventually the purging stopped but the binging did not.
End result: a whopping 300+ lbs.
Over the course of three years I cut back a little at a time on what I ate and managed to lose almost 50 lbs but I stalled out for a log period of time.
When my in-laws visited us in April of 2002 they had recently started low carbing and had lost about 35 lbs each but more importantly my mother in law has been able to cut back dramatically on the medications she had to take on a daily basis. It was that May that I decided Id give low-carbing a try. I had great success with it and it was fairly easy to stick to with some preparation.
But like any diet, if you let yourself get bored and cheat a couple of times, those couple of times turn into a daily routine and well…I gained about 40 lbs back.
After yo-yoing back and forth on low carb for so long I decided it was time for something new.
I am currently doing Weight Watchers online and really enjoying it. Ive also added some exercise which Im finding is so important to reshaping my body.
UPDATED 4/21/10
Lost In Your Own Life by Alexa Vega
OMG I can so relate to you my dear. When I was little, my mother use to cover my nose to get me to swallow food. When my tummy was full I was happy and wouldnt bother her. I grew up a chubby kid. Later in high school I discovered bulimia. Food was a way for my mother to show affection. I accepted her love (food) and rejected it by throwing up because I didnt want to be fat. At the time I didnt know it but bulimia is very addictive. In college I continued with the bulimia after periods of starvation. My weight was up and down. Sometimes I was heavy and sometimes I was ultra thin. I continued this vicious cycle until I married and had children. The bulimia I stopped 5 years ago when my husband and I divorced. Even though the bulimia has stopped, the binging hasnt. My mind still thinks Im going to purge after every binge but I dont do it. Thats how I ended up putting on 150 pounds. Im glad you were able to stop the purging before it started to ruin your health. I destroyed my thyroid gland, rotted out all my teeth, and have an abdominal Honoria that makes me look 9 months pregnant laying on my back. Plus I look 10 years older than what I am. I hope we both will be able to get our weight off for good and eat normally again.