So today was a day like any other day. I got up later than I wanted to and had to rush around getting ready for work.
I got to work just in time and fixed myself my coffee and my water and dove right in.
A couple hours later a co-worker arrives with an Enchilada Casserole. An hour after that my office manager comes in with donuts, cupcakes and cookies. Also, another co-worker came around and delivered little V-Day bags of candy on everyone’s desks.
I heard that the casserole was bomb, the cupcakes yummy, the donuts divine and the cookies okay. I wouldn’t know, because I DIDN’T EAT ANY OF THEM!
I was quite proud of myself. I had my greek yogurt and tablespoon of granola along with a banana for breakfast. For lunch I had my meal that I had prepped this weekend that consisted of a brown rice and lentil mixture, a piece of fish, a half a yam and a mix of non starchy veggies. It filled me up and I didn’t feel tempted.
I got home and found my husband was cooking up some ramen type dish with chicken and cauliflower. Now, the chicken and cauli I can get behind, but the noodles will have to go.
I love my husband to the moon and back, but he doesn’t share my need to be so rigid on the diet. He is more of a wing it and what he creates in the kitchen is a pinch of this and a handful of that…which is great. I’m lucky that he even cooks at all, but for dieting and counting calories, it’s not so good.
So, the noodles are going to be replaced with a little bit of brown rice and the rest will remain the same.
What all this points to, is that after a year or more of having zero desire or motivation to diet, I seem to finally have it back! I contribute this to launching the Youtube channel and this blog to hold myself accountable. I can’t even tell you the last time I have cared about what I put into my mouth. I mean, I CARED, but I still ate it anyway. There was never any hesitation.
“I shouldn’t eat th-” NOM NOM NOM!
It feels so good to finally have some power back over my own body.
It’s going to be a long road and I am aware of that. So many times today I wondered why I couldn’t just have one bite of one of those delicious morsels in the break room, but I didn’t do it!
It’s the small victories that pave the way to the big ones.
Next time I plan on scolding myself on the fact that I seem to think that weekend calories just don’t count…
So I weighed in on Friday and that weight was a whopping 272.4. That is so scarily close to 300 that I’m floored and frightened. However, I feel that I’m in a good place right now and making good decisions.
The husband is on board for the diet. I just ordered some meal prep containers from Amazon. I need to buckle down and learn my choreography for the play I’m in so that means automatic cardio every night after work that I’m not at rehearsal. I’ve dusted off my fitbit that I bought but never used because it was just too depressing. Most of all, I just finally feel that spark of motivation again. I’ve gone so long without it that I was beginning to think I would never get it back.
Hubs and I just booked a quick weekend trip to Vegas in May for our birthdays last night. That gives me a bit of a goal. I’d like to lose about 20 pounds before the trip. I think that is fair. 20 pounds in 3 months is fairly doable if I step up my game right?
Anyhoo, it makes me excited to be excited, if that makes any sense at all. 🙂
We had rehearsal tonight and I stopped at the gas station for a large bottle of water as I usually do. I also usually grab some sort of bad snack to have at said rehearsal. Some sort of muffin or pastry because this “gas station” gets really good baked goods delivered daily.
Today I looked for something to eat, but couldn’t justify the calories at all knowing I had packed a banana, a nectarine and a small page of rice cake chips in my backpack before I left the house. So I just bought the water and left. I had the nectarine and the banana at the rehearsal but didn’t have time to eat the chips.
I call that a small victory, wouldn’t you?
My fitbit is charging as I type. My husband made yummy veggie and chicken omelets for dinner and I’m looking forward to starting a new way of life. 🙂
So I created a youtube account for my verbal diarrhea. 🙂
If you want to check it out, here is the link.
Many years ago, I used to have a cooking show on youtube called Lo Carb Cafe. I had forgotten how much I enjoyed hosting that, but with not being able to eat low carb anymore, there wasn’t much reason to keep up with the show.
My current channel will just be me chronicling my new weight loss journey and my hopeful progress.
I went grocery shopping today and got all kinds of veggies and good starches. Tonight I ordered some meal prep containers from amazon and I’m looking forward to prepping a bunch of meals and not having to worry about what my husband is making for dinner while I’m at rehearsal. 🙂
Most of all, I’m just really excited for losing weight again. It’s been a long time since I felt any motivation, so this is huge.